Melanie's Blogs

 Their were plenty of times were I felt regret in my life. I think the time I've felt most regret was loosing some of my closest friends and not speaking up and telling them how I felt. Two of my closest friends moved away in the end of 7th grade school year and ever since they moved I've felt like part of me has been missing. I tried distracting myself by going out and try to meet and hangout with different people but it's just not the same and didn't work out. I feel like nobody else can replace them and compare to them, and it's true. They were the only ones I could truly be myself around with.  Seems like they're the only ones I could rely and truly trust. I regret not opening up to them and express to them how I felt instead of bottling my emotions and keeping it to myself instead.

    I think someone famous I'd like to meet would be Ethan Cutkosky and Cameron Monaghan. I chose Ethan and Cameron because they're both my favorite characters on Shameless (my favorite show) and I just want to know more on how they felt about their characters. On the show Ethan plays Carl and Cameron plays as Ian. In the show throughout the seasons you see how their crazy family is and what the Gallaghers (the kids) have to deal with and you see each kid grow and change and their obstacles in their deranged life. The Gallaghers lived in the South side of Chicago and that's where they were shooting the show and one of my friends went to go visit the houses that they got shot in, I've been wanting to go visit too. I also want to know how it was like being here and shooting their show here. They both seem like cool down to earth people and I just want to learn more about themselves to. They're both phenomenal actors besides Shameless too.

   6th grade middle of the year or so, while I was in a difficult place with myself in life I had gone to the hospital and while I was there this really down to earth mentor would come to talk to us and he noticed I stood out differently from the other girls there. After one of the meetings/discussions we had he came to talk to me and asked why I don't participate in the discussions and acted like I did and why I would isolate myself. All I would every say was I was just tired and didn't want to talk. Slowly I gained trust and started opening up to him but he would always try to stay objective about what I would say and any thoughts that I had that I would tell him. When my time was up at the hospital before I left he told me "Sometimes when you're going through something difficult in your life all you need is to talk and let everything out and not bottle yourself up and isolate yourself and act like everything's perfect because in reality nobody's perfect an

   My worst argument was probably with my parents and my sister. It all just started with my dad just getting mad at my mom for hanging out with her best friends that she hasn't seen in a long time and my dad was upset and that's a long story I dont want to talk about. But from what i learned from that argument wasn't something typical like dont talk back or dont be disrespectful. I learned when you're arguing with a stubborn person you just listen to them, if they ask you to leave you leave. With stubborn people you can never win an argument no matter how hard you try and how good your reasonings are that your thoughts or opinions are better than there's. I don't ever recall winning an argument with him, he's probably the most stubborn person I know.

    I feel like I'm most confident on being a good listener to people. I can listen to friends just talk and and talk. I love being able to listen to other people even though it sounds weird. I just like being able to listen to other people about life experiences and their stories or just on how their day or week was. I like being there for other people and listen to them when no one else can. I think I need a confidence boost on myself in general I feel like I tend to be to hard on myself and I tend to be very meticulous on what I do and how I work on it and I just want everything to be perfect. Although I do try hard just to work with what I have even if its not how I specifically want it.

  Happiness is having both of my parents. Happiness is eating my favorite food. Happiness is having friends that are there for you and and care about you. Happiness is playing soccer on a beautiful day. Happiness is going for a run on a sunny day. Happiness is drinking iced coffee. Happiness is listening to music. Happiness is sitting outside at nigh on a summer day. Happiness is eating pancakes. Happiness is eating ice cream on a hot sunny day. Happiness is still being able to  function  after the mile run in gym. Happiness is having a roof over my head. Happiness is drinking hot chocolate on a cold winter day. Happiness is cooking with your best friend. Happiness is going to amusement parks.